However, since last Friday, Dan has been working swing shift. For those of you that don't know what that is, he works from 4:00pm to 12:00am. This is a new schedule for us and I am still getting used to him not being home when I go to bed. It feels a bit lonely without him:-( I know, it seems a bit odd considering I don't generally go to bed at the same time anyway...but I KNOW he is there! Now, the house just feels, well, less protected!
And now I have the added loneliness of one of my children gone for a few days. Fiona left this evening to spend 5 days with my parents, 2 on a train and 3 at Disneyland. This is not her first time...as a matter of fact, she has gone almost every year since she was 1 1/2 years old(she is almost 8). So this is not a new occurrence for me. However, I find that there is an eerie quiet about the house without her here. Of course, I do have both Liam and Brenna and they are so much fun to be with, but the dynamics of the home are a bit topsy-turvey without Fiona. Fiona is full of constant energy, laughter, humor and love. Brenna is quiet, gentle, self-entertained and we are still getting to know this bright star in our life. She always shines when given the opportunity...and so these moments when Fiona is away, are very good for her. But none the less....we miss our Fiona. Just as I missed my dear Brenna when she stayed with my parents a couple of weeks ago.
Each child brings their own gift to a family. Each is precious in their own right. When one is missing from the family unit...it is felt. Although I look forward to having some special time with Brenna and Liam, I will be looking forward too to having my family complete once again.
Of course, tonight I feel this most poignantly since this is Fiona's first night away for the trip and Dan is at work. I will feel better tomorrow I'm sure. And as I get used to Dan's new schedule, it will no doubt begin to feel "normal". Tonight however, I miss my love and my sweet girl!