He also has been going through the anxiety of being apart from me and it just tears me up to cause him distress. So, this was a big step for me. My parents were so wonderful in watching all three children and I knew they were perfectly capable of handling him...but I wasn't sure I was ready! I mean, this is my baby boy...we are so very close and bonded and I ache when I know he is upset.
But, I needed(and wanted) to be able to concentrate at the homeschool meeting and so...I took the chance. I fed him just before leaving him, and made sure to be home before he would need another feeding. And then I left....wow, talk about hard!
The ladies at my meeting were surprised to see me without him, and I was really feeling the emptiness. I never thought I'd care so much to be parted with my children. Now, I felt it with Fiona and Brenna too...but it was different this time. See, I wasn't successful nursing my girls, but I have been with Liam and we are very close..bonded. And I love to hold him and comfort him. So, my arms felt a bit empty.I think motherhood and the bond that develops between a mother and her nursling is amazing! God created such an amazing relationship, didn't he? Truly beautiful...and so very perfect. There is nothing like holding a warm little babe in your arms, nestled snugly to your chest. Ahhhh, I'm so thankful to be a mother!
"The sea its millions of waves is rocking, divine, hearing the loving seas, I'm rocking my child.
The wandering wind in the night is rocking the fields of wheat, hearing the loving winds, I'm rocking my child.
God the father his thousands of worlds is rocking without a sound. Feeling his hand in the shadows, I'm rocking my child."
Hug your little ones tonight and thank God for the blessing of motherhood...they will be grown sooner than we desire.