There are days when I feel like an ogre...as if every little thing causes me to rise up and bellow like a nasty monster. I hate days like that and strive to keep those at bay! I have found recently, that they are becoming fewer and fewer. I'm not sure why, but I am so thankful. I have often asked the Lord to change my heart and take away the selfish tendencies and impatient attitudes I may have. I feel that this is what is at work...that He is truly taking my sinful, selfish heart and turning it more and more towards Him. By doing so, He has made it possible for me to turn my heart more towards my dear children. I'm still very much a work in progress but my "view from the mountain" is surely getting clearer.
That being said, I have had a few examples of my heart change being (I hope) recognized by the very children I want to be closer to. My dear girls! Over the last few weeks, I have been the recipient of my little Brenna's kisses and hugs. She often will just come up to me and sweetly say, "I love you mommy." It means so much to me to hear these dear words...I hope to hear it more and more often from both of my girls.
Today, I was blessed by a very sweet, just-because, card from my older daughter, Fiona. There was no special occasion, nothing I had done...but suddenly as I was cleaning in the kitchen, she presented me with her card. It was a simply drawn card with sweet words in it. It meant so very much to me and I will stash it away in my "from the kids" box to remember many years down the road:-) I'll try to get a shot of each of my cards(because my dear Brenna also made one) and post them along with a couple of shots from my day today, soon.
Well, off to bed I go...